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T\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c sanh ra v\u00e0o n\u0103m 1970 t\u1ea1i Anh Qu\u1ed1c \u1edf m\u1ed9t gia \u0111\u00ecnh trung l\u01b0u v\u00e0 c\u00f3 m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi anh trai. Ba m\u1eb9 c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ec1u b\u1ecb gi\u00e0y v\u00f2 b\u1edfi ch\u1ee9ng nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u bia, tuy nhi\u00ean v\u1eabn thu x\u1ebfp \u0111\u1ec3 gia \u0111\u00ecnh t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u00e1o \u1ea5m c\u01a1m no v\u00e0 nu\u00f4i d\u01b0\u1ee1ng hai anh em ch\u00fang t\u00f4i tr\u00ean ph\u01b0\u01a1ng di\u1ec7n v\u1eadt ch\u1ea5t. H\u1ecd l\u00e0m t\u1ea5t c\u1ea3 c\u00f3 g\u00ec c\u00f3 th\u1ec3, nh\u01b0ng do t\u00e2m l\u00fd kh\u00f4ng \u1ed5n \u0111\u1ecbnh v\u00e0 v\u00ec v\u1eady ngo\u00e0i tr\u1eeb nh\u1eefng ph\u01b0\u01a1ng ti\u1ec7n v\u1eadt ch\u1ea5t h\u1ecd kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 th\u00eam b\u1ea5t c\u1ee9 g\u00ec \u0111\u1ec3 cho ch\u00fang t\u00f4i. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i tr\u01b0\u1edfng th\u00e0nh trong t\u00ecnh tr\u1ea1ng thi\u1ebfu t\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u01a1ng v\u00e0 s\u1ef1 quan t\u00e2m ch\u0103m s\u00f3c. Khi t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c 7 tu\u1ed5i, b\u00e0 c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i c\u0169ng b\u1ecb ch\u1ee9ng nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u bia, cho t\u00f4i th\u1ee9 u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u bia \u0111\u1ea7u ti\u00ean trong \u0111\u1eddi v\u00e0 m\u1ed9t valium, m\u1ed9t thu\u1ed1c an th\u1ea7n c\u1ea5p \u0111\u1ed9 m\u1ea1nh, tr\u01b0\u1edbc khi \u0111i nha s\u0129 \u0111\u1ec3 nh\u1ed5 r\u1ea5t nhi\u1ec1u r\u0103ng c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i b\u1edfi v\u00ec tri\u1ec7u ch\u1ee9ng s\u00e2u r\u0103ng do ch\u1ebf \u0111\u1ed9 \u0103n u\u1ed1ng k\u00e9m v\u00e0 b\u1ecf b\u00ea. Ng\u01b0\u1eddi nha s\u0129 kh\u00f4ng bi\u1ebft t\u00ecnh tr\u1ea1ng l\u00fac \u0111\u00f3 c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u00e0 v\u1eabn \u0111\u01b0a t\u00f4i v\u00e0o ch\u1ebf \u0111\u1ed9 g\u00e2y t\u00ea nh\u01b0 th\u00f4ng th\u01b0\u1eddng.<\/p>\n
M\u1eb9 c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t y t\u00e1, nh\u01b0ng v\u1eabn cho ph\u00e9p t\u00f4i thi\u00eau th\u1ee5 thu\u1ed1c an th\u1ea7n v\u00e0 ch\u1ea5t c\u00f3 men r\u01b0\u1ee3u \u0111\u00f3. Sau \u0111\u00f3 h\u1ecd th\u1ea5y r\u1ea5t kh\u00f3 \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u01b0a t\u00f4i tr\u1edf l\u1ea1i tr\u1ea1ng th\u00e1i t\u1ec9nh th\u1ee9c v\u00e0 t\u00f4i c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 ch\u1ebft \u0111i trong gi\u00e2y ph\u00fat \u1ea5y. T\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng h\u00e0nh \u0111\u1ed9ng h\u00e0nh h\u1ea1 b\u1ea3n th\u00e2n v\u00e0o \u0111\u1ed9 tu\u1ed5i n\u00e0y. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 t\u1eebng b\u1ebb g\u00e3y x\u01b0\u01a1ng c\u1ee7a m\u00ecnh v\u1edbi m\u1ed9t v\u1eadt n\u1eb7ng v\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n h\u1ee9ng th\u00fa \u0111\u1ec3 \u0103n. T\u00f4i s\u1ed1ng trong s\u1ef1 s\u1ee3 h\u00e3i khi ba c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i thay \u0111\u1ed5i b\u1ea5t th\u01b0\u1eddng v\u00e0 hay b\u1ea1o h\u00e0nh ng\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111\u00e3i m\u1eb9 v\u00e0 anh trai t\u00f4i. M\u1eb7c d\u00f9 th\u1ebf, t\u00f4i c\u00f3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c t\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u01a1ng h\u1ea7u h\u1ebft t\u1eeb cha t\u00f4i v\u00e0 ch\u00ednh v\u00ec th\u1ebf, \u00f4ng \u1ea5y \u00edt h\u00e0nh h\u1ea1 t\u00f4i h\u01a1n l\u00e0 m\u1eb9 v\u00e0 anh trai. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 t\u1eebng s\u1ed1ng v\u00ec n\u00e9t m\u1eb7t c\u1ee7a ba t\u00f4i v\u00e0 c\u1ea7u kh\u1ea9n s\u1ef1 ch\u1ea5p thu\u1eadn c\u1ee7a \u00f4ng \u1ea5y. Ba m\u1eb9 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i th\u01b0\u1eddng b\u1eaft \u0111i ng\u1ee7 s\u1edbm, v\u00e0 ba t\u00f4i th\u01b0\u1eddng \u0111\u00e1nh t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ec3 t\u00f4i gi\u1eef y\u00ean l\u1eb7ng khi \u0111ang n\u1eb1m tr\u00ean gi\u01b0\u1eddng.<\/p>\n
T\u00f4i bi\u1ebft \u0111\u1ecdc vi\u1ebft l\u00fac 4 tu\u1ed5i v\u00e0 th\u01b0\u1eddng ng\u1ed3i tr\u00ean gi\u01b0\u1eddng \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u1ecdc truy\u1ec7n tr\u01b0\u1edbc khi ng\u1ee7 cho anh trai t\u00f4i. Th\u1eddi gian d\u1ea7n tr\u00f4i, ch\u00fang t\u00f4i tr\u1edf n\u00ean th\u00e2n thi\u1ebft h\u01a1n v\u00e0 m\u1ed7i \u0111\u00eam ch\u00fang t\u00f4i th\u01b0\u1eddng t\u00e2m s\u1ef1 v\u1edbi nhau. T\u00f4i ngh\u0129 l\u00e0 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111ang c\u1ed1 vun \u0111\u1eafp t\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u01a1ng cho nhau. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i r\u1ea5t ng\u1ed7 ngh\u1ecbch khi \u0111i h\u1ecdc trong tr\u01b0\u1eddng v\u00e0 th\u01b0\u1eddng b\u1ecb ph\u1ea1t, nh\u01b0ng ba m\u1eb9 kh\u00f4ng h\u1ec1 d\u1ea1y d\u1ed7 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i ch\u1ec9 b\u1ecb ph\u1ea1t v\u00e0 ba m\u1eb9 t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ed5 l\u1ed7i cho c\u00e1c th\u1ea7y c\u00f4.<\/p>\n
B\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u 15 tu\u1ed5i, t\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u ti\u00eau th\u1ee5 r\u01b0\u1ee3u bia nhi\u1ec1u h\u01a1n v\u00e0 ch\u1ee9ng nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u nghi\u00eam tr\u1ecdng b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u. T\u00f4i c\u00f3 m\u1ed9t bu\u1ed5i ti\u1ec7c sinh nh\u1eadt 15 tu\u1ed5i t\u1ea1i nh\u00e0. Ba m\u1eb9 t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ec1u v\u1eafng nh\u00e0. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 nh\u1ea3y l\u00ean l\u01b0ng c\u1ee7a m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi b\u1ea1n, nh\u01b0ng m\u1ed9t c\u00e1i dao \u0111\u00e3 l\u00f2i ra t\u1eeb c\u00e1i t\u00fai c\u1ee7a b\u1ea1n \u1ea5y v\u00e0 \u0111\u00e2m t\u00f4i ch\u1ea3y m\u00e1u. Anh trai \u0111\u1eb7t t\u00f4i n\u1eb1m xu\u1ed1ng v\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng d\u00e1m k\u00eau xe c\u1ea5p c\u1ee9u v\u00ec anh \u1ea5y s\u1ee3 ba t\u00f4i s\u1ebd n\u1ed5i tr\u1eadn l\u00f4i \u0111\u00ecnh. M\u1eb9 c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i tr\u1edf v\u1ec1 v\u00e0 \u0111\u00e3 kh\u00f4ng \u0111\u01b0a t\u00f4i \u0111i b\u1ec7nh vi\u1ec7n; b\u00e0 \u1ea5y qu\u00e1 t\u1ee9c gi\u1eadn v\u00e0 s\u1ee3 b\u1ecb x\u1ea5u h\u1ed5. K\u1ebft qu\u1ea3 l\u00e0, v\u1ebft th\u01b0\u01a1ng hay ch\u1ea3y m\u00e1u trong l\u1edbp h\u1ecdc v\u00e0 tr\u01b0\u1eddng t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 \u0111\u01b0a t\u00f4i \u0111i nh\u00e0 th\u01b0\u01a1ng. S\u1ef1 b\u1ecf b\u00ea n\u00e0y kh\u00f4ng b\u1ecb truy c\u1ee9u v\u00ec m\u1eb9 t\u00f4i l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t y t\u00e1 c\u00f3 th\u00e2m ni\u00ean.<\/p>\n
Anh trai t\u00f4i qua \u0111\u1eddi do b\u1ec7nh m\u00e1u tr\u1eafng khi t\u00f4i 17 tu\u1ed5i v\u00e0 \u0111\u1ebfn l\u00fac n\u00e0y t\u00f4i u\u1ed1ng r\u1ea5t nhi\u1ec1u r\u01b0\u1ee3u, 25 chai r\u01b0\u1ee3u 4 \u0111\u00eam m\u1ed9t tu\u1ea7n. Ch\u1ee9ng nghi\u1ec7n tr\u1edf n\u00ean t\u1ed3i t\u1ec7 h\u01a1n v\u00e0 t\u00f4i d\u01b0\u1eddng nh\u01b0 m\u1ed7i \u0111\u00eam \u0111\u1ec1u u\u1ed1ng. T\u00f4i h\u1ecdc ng\u00e0nh y t\u00e1 khi t\u00f4i kho\u1ea3ng 20 tu\u1ed5i. V\u00e0o th\u1eddi \u0111i\u1ec3m n\u00e0y d\u01b0\u1eddng nh\u01b0 \u0111\u00eam n\u00e0o t\u00f4i c\u0169ng u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u. H\u1eadu qu\u1ea3 c\u1ee7a vi\u1ec7c nghi\u1ec7n ng\u1eadp \u0111\u00e3 di\u1ec5n t\u1edbi. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 tho\u00e1t ra kh\u1ecfi m\u1ed9t cu\u1ed9c t\u1ea5n c\u00f4ng t\u00ecnh d\u1ee5c v\u00e0o l\u00fac ban \u0111\u00eam. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 b\u1ecb tr\u00f3i bu\u1ed9c v\u00e0 c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n l\u00ean Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c gi\u00fap v\u00e0 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf \u0111\u00e3\u00a0 tho\u00e1t th\u00e2n.<\/p>\n
C\u01a1n nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u tr\u1ea7m tr\u1ecdng h\u01a1n, t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 ho\u00e0n t\u1ea5t kho\u00e1 h\u1ecdc y t\u00e1 v\u00ec t\u00ecnh tr\u1ea1ng s\u1ee9c kh\u1ecfe xu\u1ed1ng c\u1ea5p b\u1edfi do nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u. T\u00f4i b\u1ecb ch\u1ea3y m\u00e1u d\u1ea1 d\u00e0y v\u00e0 s\u1ee3 h\u00e3i tr\u01b0\u1edbc s\u1ef1 vi\u1ec7c n\u00e0y. T\u00f4i quay tr\u1edf v\u1ec1 nh\u00e0. T\u00f4i ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u v\u00e0 \u0111i ch\u01a1i khuya. C\u00e1c m\u1ed1i t\u00ecnh c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i tr\u1edf n\u00ean l\u1eadn \u0111\u1eadn.<\/p>\n
Khi t\u00f4i 24 tu\u1ed5i, t\u00f4i \u0111ang \u0111i du l\u1ecbch \u1edf Ibiza (m\u1ed9t h\u00f2n \u0111\u1ea3o \u1edf T\u00e2y Ban Nha) v\u00e0 g\u1eb7p \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u00e0n \u00f4ng m\u00e0 sau n\u00e0y l\u00e0 h\u00f4n phu c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i. Anh \u1ea5y l\u00e0 ng\u01b0\u1eddi M\u1ef9. Anh \u1ea5y s\u1ed1ng \u1edf Hollywood Hills, Los Angeles. T\u00f4i chuy\u1ec3n sang \u0111\u1ea5y s\u1ed1ng v\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng c\u1ea7n ph\u1ea3i \u0111i l\u00e0m. Anh \u1ea5y c\u0169ng kh\u00f4ng c\u1ea7n ph\u1ea3i \u0111i l\u00e0m v\u00ec anh \u1ea5y \u0111\u1ebfn t\u1eeb m\u1ed9t gia \u0111\u00ecnh gi\u00e0u c\u00f3. T\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u s\u1ed1ng sa \u0111o\u1ea1 h\u01a1n, u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y, ch\u01a1i c\u00e1c lo\u1ea1i ma tu\u00fd v\u00e0 h\u00fat ma tu\u00fd \u0111\u00e1. T\u00f4i s\u1ed1ng trong m\u1ed9t cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi h\u00e0o nho\u00e1ng v\u00e0 tru\u1ef5 l\u1ea1c \u0111\u1ed3ng h\u00e0nh v\u1edbi ch\u1ee9ng nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u tr\u1ea7m tr\u1ecdng c\u1ee7a m\u00ecnh. Ti\u1ec1n b\u1ea1c kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n ngh\u0129a l\u00fd g\u00ec v\u00e0 x\u00e3 h\u1ed9i c\u0169ng \u0111\u1ed3i b\u1ea1i v\u00e0 c\u1ee9 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf t\u00f4i c\u0169ng t\u00e1ch bi\u1ec7t ra kh\u1ecfi s\u1ef1 th\u1eadt n\u00e0y. C\u00f3 nh\u1eefng khi t\u00f4i t\u1ec9nh l\u1ea1i t\u1eeb c\u00e1c th\u1ee9 ma tuy trong v\u00e0i ng\u00e0y v\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u1edf trong h\u1ed3 n\u01b0\u1edbc n\u00f3ng ngo\u00e0i tr\u1eddi v\u00e0 nh\u00ecn xu\u1ed1ng \u0111\u1ed3i khi m\u1eb7t tr\u1eddi \u0111ang m\u1ecdc l\u00ean. Trong gi\u00e2y ph\u00fat \u0111\u00f3 t\u00f4i th\u1ea5y r\u1ea5t phi\u1ec1n mu\u1ed9n v\u00ec ch\u01b0a bao gi\u1eddi t\u00f4i th\u1ea5y tr\u1ed1ng r\u1ed7ng nh\u01b0 v\u1eady v\u00e0 t\u00f4i nh\u1eadn th\u1ee9c ra ti\u1ec1n kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 cho t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c h\u1ea1nh ph\u00fac. \u0110\u00ednh \u01b0\u1edbc c\u1ee7a ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ed5 v\u1ee1 ch\u1ec9 sau 2 n\u0103m v\u00e0 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf t\u00f4i r\u1ea5t \u0111au kh\u1ed5.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i r\u1eddi n\u01b0\u1edbc M\u1ef9 v\u00e0 tr\u1edf v\u1ec1 l\u1ea1i Anh. T\u00f4i v\u1eabn c\u1ee9 ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u v\u00e0 s\u1eed d\u1ee5ng c\u00e1c ch\u1ea5t g\u00e2y nghi\u1ec7n. Ch\u1ee9ng nghi\u1ec7n ng\u1eadp tr\u1edf n\u00ean r\u1ea5t bi th\u1ea3m nh\u01b0ng ba m\u1eb9 t\u00f4i c\u0169ng kh\u00f4ng n\u00f3i g\u00ec. H\u1ecd c\u00f2n u\u1ed1ng v\u1edbi t\u00f4i m\u1ed7i \u0111\u00eam. \u00d4ng b\u00e0 c\u1ee7a ch\u00fang t\u00f4i, ng\u01b0\u1eddi em h\u1ecd 16 tu\u1ed5i, nh\u1eefng h\u1ecd h\u00e0ng kh\u00e1c v\u00e0 m\u1eb9 c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i c\u0169ng ch\u1ebft \u0111i trong kho\u1ea3ng th\u1eddi gian g\u1ea7n. T\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 ch\u1ecbu n\u1ed5i v\u00e0 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf c\u0169ng b\u1ecb nh\u1eadp vi\u1ec7n ngay n\u01a1i m\u00e0 gia \u0111\u00ecnh v\u00e0 h\u1ecd h\u00e0ng t\u00f4i l\u00eca \u0111\u1eddi. T\u00f4i ch\u1ec9 ngh\u0129 \u0111\u1ebfn c\u00e1i ch\u1ebft.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n l\u00ean \u0111\u1ee9c Ch\u00faa khi \u0111ang kh\u00f3c trong ph\u00f2ng t\u1eafm \u1edf b\u1ec7nh vi\u1ec7n v\u00e0 l\u1ea5y \u0111i s\u1ef1 \u0111au kh\u1ed5 n\u00e0y. M\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u00e0n \u00f4ng d\u01b0\u1eddng nh\u01b0 c\u0169ng l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t b\u1ec7nh nh\u00e2n kh\u00e1c b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u tr\u00f2 chuy\u1ec7n v\u1edbi t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i tr\u00ecnh b\u00e0y c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn l\u00fac n\u00e0y c\u1ee7a m\u00ecnh. \u00d4ng \u1ea5y n\u00f3i chuy\u1ec7n v\u1edbi t\u00f4i v\u00e0 l\u00e0m cho t\u00f4i th\u1ea5y r\u1ea5t t\u1ec9nh l\u1eb7ng v\u00e0 n\u00f3i r\u1eb1ng m\u1ecdi th\u1ee9 s\u1ebd \u1ed5n th\u00f4i. \u00d4ng \u1ea5y c\u0169ng \u0111\u1ebfn v\u00e0o m\u1ed9t ng\u00e0y kh\u00e1c \u0111\u1ec3 tr\u00f2 chuy\u1ec7n c\u00f9ng t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i \u0111i \u0111\u1ebfn n\u01a1i m\u00e0 m\u1eb9 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 qua \u0111\u1eddi v\u00e0 \u00f4ng \u1ea5y c\u0169ng xu\u1ea5t hi\u1ec7n n\u1eefa. L\u00fac m\u1eb9 t\u00f4i ra \u0111i, t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 \u0111i \u0111\u1ebfn v\u00e0 c\u1ea3m \u01a1n \u00f4ng \u1ea5y v\u00ec \u1ed5ng c\u0169ng \u1edf g\u1ea7n \u0111\u00f3. Kh\u00f4ng ai bi\u1ebft \u00f4ng \u1ea5y v\u00e0 c\u0169ng ch\u01b0a t\u1eebng nh\u00ecn th\u1ea5y \u00f4ng ta. \u00d4ng \u1ea5y c\u00f3 c\u1eb7p m\u1eaft s\u00e1ng b\u1eebng v\u00e0 d\u01b0\u1eddng nh\u01b0 t\u00f4i bi\u1ebft \u00f4ng \u1ea5y t\u1eeb l\u00e2u r\u1ed3i. Sau \u0111\u00f3 t\u00f4i ngh\u0129 l\u00e0 \u0111\u00e2y c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t s\u1ed1 c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn t\u00e2m linh<\/u>. R\u1ed3i sau \u0111\u00f3 t\u00f4i c\u0169ng g\u1eb7p m\u1ed9t s\u1ed1 ng\u01b0\u1eddi kh\u00e1c \u0111\u1ebfn v\u00e0 ng\u0103n c\u1ea3n t\u00f4i t\u1ef1 s\u00e1t. T\u00f4i ch\u1ec9 bi\u1ebft \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c sau khi h\u1ecd \u0111\u00e3 r\u1eddi \u0111i.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i \u0111ang nh\u1ea3y nh\u00f3t \u1edf m\u1ed9t h\u1ed9p \u0111\u00eam, tr\u00ean m\u1ed9t b\u1ee9c t\u01b0\u1eddng, t\u00f4i ng\u00e3 xu\u1ed1ng v\u00e0 b\u1ecb b\u1ec3 \u0111\u1ea7u v\u00e0 t\u00f4i ph\u1ea3i \u0111\u01b0a \u0111i c\u1ea5p c\u1ee9u. T\u00f4i c\u0169ng \u0111\u00e3 u\u1ed1ng c\u00e1c thu\u1ed1c g\u00e2y nghi\u1ec7n v\u00e0 u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u qu\u00e1 li\u1ec1u c\u00f9ng m\u1ed9t l\u00fac v\u00e0 v\u1eabn s\u1ed1ng s\u00f3t. T\u00f4i c\u0169ng \u0111\u00e3 t\u1eebng tr\u1ea3i qua m\u1ed9t s\u1ed1 tai n\u1ea1n giao th\u00f4ng khi h\u1ecd ph\u1ea3i c\u01b0a c\u00e1nh c\u1eeda \u0111\u1ec3 mang t\u00f4i ra nh\u01b0ng sau \u0111\u00f3 t\u00f4i \u0111i \u0111\u1ee9ng b\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u1eddng kh\u00f4ng h\u1ec1 h\u1ee9ng g\u00ec. T\u00f4i v\u00f4 t\u00ecnh ch\u01a1i ma tu\u00fd qu\u00e1 li\u1ec1u nhi\u1ec1u l\u1ea7n m\u00e0 v\u1eabn s\u1ed1ng s\u00f3t. Nhi\u1ec1u b\u00e1c s\u0129 c\u0169ng kh\u00f4ng hi\u1ec3u \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c vi\u1ec7c n\u00e0y. T\u00f4i b\u1ecb \u0111\u01b0a v\u00e0o nh\u00e0 th\u01b0\u01a1ng \u0111i\u00ean trong 2 tu\u1ea7n khi m\u00e0 t\u00f4i c\u00f3 \u00fd t\u1ef1 t\u1eed v\u00e0o kho\u1ea3ng 28 tu\u1ed5i. (Ghi ch\u00fa c\u1ee7a so\u1ea1n gi\u1ea3: M\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi c\u00f3 3 kh\u1ea3 n\u0103ng c\u1ee7a th\u1eddi \u0111i\u1ec3m l\u00eca tr\u1ea7n<\/a>, c\u00e1i ch\u1ebft c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 x\u1ea3y ra, c\u00e1i ch\u1ebft v\u00e0 c\u00e1i ch\u1ebft x\u00e1c \u0111\u1ecbnh.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i c\u1ee9 di chuy\u1ec3n t\u1eeb h\u1ebft ch\u1ed5 n\u00e0y sang ch\u1ed5 kh\u00e1c t\u1eeb m\u1ed1i t\u00ecnh n\u00e0y sang m\u1ed1i t\u00ecnh kh\u00e1c, d\u1ecdn \u0111i \u0111\u1ebfn n\u01a1i m\u00e0 ng\u01b0\u1eddi y\u00eau t\u00f4i \u1edf. T\u00f4i v\u1eabn u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u v\u00e0 x\u00e0i ch\u1ea5t g\u00e2y nghi\u1ec7n v\u00e0 s\u1ef1 t\u1ef1 tin trong t\u00f4i g\u1ea7n nh\u01b0 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n. Cha c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i t\u00e1i h\u00f4n ngay sau khi m\u1eb9 t\u00f4i m\u1ea5t \u0111i v\u00e0 \u0111u\u1ed5i t\u00f4i ra kh\u1ecfi nh\u00e0. T\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n n\u01a1i \u0111\u1ec3 c\u01b0 ng\u1ee5 v\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 ti\u1ec1n, n\u00ean t\u00f4i tr\u1edf th\u00e0nh m\u1ed9t v\u0169 c\u00f4ng khi\u00eau g\u1ee3i m\u00faa \u0111\u00f9i. T\u00f4i l\u00e0m vi\u1ec7c \u1edf Lanzarote (m\u1ed9t h\u00f2n \u0111\u1ea3o \u1edf T\u00e2y Ban Nha), Tenerife, Lu\u00e2n \u0110\u00f4n, Iceland, Nh\u1eadt B\u1ea3n v\u00e0 \u00dac. Con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng t\u00e2m linh c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i nh\u01b0 b\u1ecb s\u1ee5p \u0111\u1ed5,<\/p>\n T\u00f4i g\u1eb7p \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c ch\u1ed3ng c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i \u1edf Anh qu\u1ed1c trong d\u1ecbp ngh\u1ec9 v\u1ec1 th\u0103m qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng, mang thai v\u00e0 sau \u0111\u00f3 k\u1ebft h\u00f4n. T\u00f4i ng\u1eebng vi\u1ec7c u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u khi t\u00f4i \u0111ang mang b\u1ea7u. N\u00f3 r\u1ea5t kh\u00f3 v\u00e0 t\u00f4i th\u01b0\u1eddng b\u1ecb nhi\u1ec1u c\u01a1n ho\u1ea3ng lo\u1ea1n. Ch\u1ed3ng t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 mang t\u1edbi cho t\u00f4i t\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u01a1ng v\u00ec m\u1ed7i \u0111\u00eam anh \u1ea5y lu\u00f4n b\u1ecb ph\u00ea thu\u1ed1c. \u0110\u1ee9a b\u00e9 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c sanh ra \u0111\u1eddi r\u1ed3i sau \u0111\u00f3 t\u00f4i ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u v\u00e0 ch\u01a1i thu\u1ed1c khi em b\u00e9 \u0111i ng\u1ee7. T\u00f4i l\u00fac \u0111\u00f3 32 tu\u1ed5i khi m\u00e0 cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi v\u00e0 c\u1ea3m x\u00fac c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i ho\u00e0n to\u00e0n m\u1ea5t ki\u1ec3m so\u00e1t. T\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c gi\u1edbi thi\u1ec7u t\u1edbi m\u1ed9t l\u1edbp cai r\u01b0\u1ee3u \u1ea9n danh mang t\u00ean Alcoholics Anonymous v\u00ec ch\u1ee9ng nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u nghi\u00eam tr\u1ecdng c\u1ee7a m\u00ecnh<\/p>\n T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u bi\u1ebft c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n l\u00ean cho Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf v\u00e0 li\u00ean k\u1ebft v\u1edbi Ng\u00e0i v\u00ec s\u1ef1 \u0111au kh\u1ed5 v\u00f4 c\u00f9ng t\u1eadn c\u1ee7a m\u00ecnh. H\u00f4n nh\u00e2n c\u1ee7a ch\u00fang t\u00f4i c\u0169ng r\u1ed3i l\u1ea1i b\u1ecb \u0111\u1ed5 b\u1ec3, t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 hi\u1ec3u \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c anh \u1ea5y v\u00e0 anh \u1ea5y mang v\u1ec1 cho ch\u00fang t\u00f4i r\u1ea5t nhi\u1ec1u n\u1ee3 n\u1ea7n ch\u1ed3ng ch\u1ea5t v\u00e0 v\u1eabn c\u1ee9 ch\u01a1i thu\u1ed1c. Sau 8 th\u00e1ng b\u1ed7ng nhi\u00ean ch\u00fang t\u00f4i l\u1ea1i k\u1ebft n\u1ed1i l\u1ea1i sau khi t\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c th\u1eeba k\u1ebf m\u1ed9t kho\u1ea3ng ti\u1ec1n l\u1edbn v\u00e0 n\u00f3 c\u0169ng c\u00f3 ngh\u0129a l\u00e0 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 mua nhi\u1ec1u thu\u1ed1c g\u00e2y nghi\u1ec7n, u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u v\u00e0 mua m\u1ed9t c\u0103n nh\u00e0. Nh\u01b0ng ch\u00fang t\u00f4i c\u0169ng b\u1eb1ng m\u1eb7t m\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng b\u1eb1ng l\u00f2ng kh\u00f4ng h\u1ec1 h\u1ee3p t\u00ednh.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i v\u1eabn th\u01b0\u1eddng c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n v\u00e0 gi\u00fap \u0111\u1ee1 ng\u01b0\u1eddi kh\u00e1c v\u00ec t\u00f4i v\u1eabn c\u00f2n nh\u1edb nh\u1eefng \u0111i\u1ec1u m\u00e0 m\u00ecnh \u0111\u00e3 h\u1ecdc \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c t\u1eeb l\u1edbp cai r\u01b0\u1ee3u \u1ea9n danh \u1ea5y. T\u00f4i \u0111i ch\u01a1i \u0111\u00eam u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u, m\u1ed9t h\u00f4m khi b\u1ecb x\u1ec9n, m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u00e0n \u00f4ng l\u1ea1 \u0111\u00e3 b\u1ecf thu\u1ed1c v\u00e0o ly r\u01b0\u1ee3u c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u00e0 c\u01b0\u1ee1ng hi\u1ebfp t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i v\u1eabn lu\u00f4n n\u00e9 tr\u00e1nh s\u1ef1 ki\u1ec7n \u0111\u00eam \u0111\u00f3.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i l\u1ea1i mang thai v\u1edbi ch\u1ed3ng c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u00e0 trong khi t\u00f4i \u0111ang 17 tu\u1ea7n mang thai, t\u00f4i ch\u1ee3t nhi\u00ean b\u1ecb \u0111au \u1edf h\u00f4ng. Kh\u00f4ng l\u00e2u sau t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 \u0111i l\u1ea1i v\u00e0 c\u1ea3m th\u1ea5y r\u1ea5t \u0111au \u0111\u1edbn m\u1ed7i gi\u00e2y m\u1ed7i ph\u00fat ng\u00e0y qua ng\u00e0y. N\u00f3 l\u00e0m t\u00f4i kh\u00f3c v\u00e0 ng\u1ea5t x\u1ec9u khi c\u01a1n \u0111au d\u1eef d\u1ed9i h\u01a1n. T\u00f4i c\u0169ng hay b\u1ecb \u1ed1m ngh\u00e9n v\u00e0o bu\u1ed5i s\u00e1ng v\u00e0 n\u00f4n m\u1eeda li\u00ean t\u1ee5c. V\u00e0o m\u1ed9t ng\u00e0y r\u1ea5t n\u00f3ng n\u1ef1c oi b\u1ee9c, t\u00f4i tr\u1edf n\u00ean b\u1ecb thi\u1ebfu n\u01b0\u1edbc v\u00e0 t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 ch\u1ecbu th\u00eam \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c n\u1eefa. Ch\u1ed3ng t\u00f4i d\u00ecu t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ebfn b\u1ec7nh vi\u1ec7n \u0111\u1ec3 g\u1eb7p b\u00e1c s\u0129 v\u00e0 \u00f4ng \u1ea5y n\u00f3i r\u1eb1ng tim t\u00f4i \u0111ang r\u1ea5t c\u0103ng v\u00e0 t\u00f4i th\u1ea5y m\u00ecnh nh\u01b0 \u0111ang gi\u1ea3 t\u1eeb cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi. B\u1ec7nh vi\u1ec7n ch\u1eefa tr\u1ecb v\u00e0 cho t\u00f4i u\u1ed1ng r\u1ea5t nhi\u1ec1u thu\u1ed1c gi\u1ea3m \u0111au nh\u00f3m opioid r\u1ea5t m\u1ea1nh \u0111\u1ec3 gi\u1ea3m \u0111au. Li\u1ec1u thu\u1ed1c n\u00e0y kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 l\u1ea5y \u0111i c\u01a1n \u0111au c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i, ch\u1ec9 l\u00e0 \u0111\u01b0a t\u00e2m tr\u00ed t\u00f4i ra kh\u1ecfi c\u01a1n \u0111au \u0111\u00f3. M\u1ed9t v\u00e0i tu\u1ea7n sau, t\u00f4i \u0111ang n\u1eb1m trong c\u01a1n \u0111au \u0111\u1edbn th\u1ed1ng kh\u1ed5 v\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n l\u00ean Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf \u0111\u1ec3 gi\u00fap cho t\u00f4i. Trong t\u00e2m th\u1ee9c t\u00f4i l\u00fac \u0111\u00f3, th\u1ea5y \u0111\u1ea7u \u00f3c m\u00ecnh tr\u00e0n ng\u1eadp v\u1edbi \u00e1nh s\u00e1ng r\u1ef1c r\u1ee1 v\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 h\u1ecfi ch\u00fang c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 gi\u00fap cho t\u00f4i. C\u01a1n \u0111au \u0111\u1edbn c\u00f9ng t\u1eadn bi\u1ebfn m\u1ea5t khi t\u00f4i \u0111ang \u1edf trong tr\u1ea1ng th\u00e1i \u0111\u1ea7y \u00e1nh s\u00e1ng nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf trong \u0111\u1ea7u t\u00f4i.<\/p>\n M\u1ed7i \u0111\u00eam trong v\u00f2ng 2 n\u0103m k\u1ebf ti\u1ebfp, t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n v\u00e0 ngu\u1ed3n \u00e1nh s\u00e1ng \u1ea5y \u0111\u1ebfn v\u1edbi t\u00f4i v\u00e0 lan to\u1ea3 tr\u00e0n ng\u1eadp kh\u1eafp c\u01a1 th\u1ec3. Nh\u1eefng kho\u1ea3nh kh\u1eafc \u1ea5y ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 gi\u00e2y ph\u00fat duy nh\u1ea5t m\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c an l\u1ea1c v\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng b\u1ecb \u0111au \u0111\u1edbn. T\u00f4i v\u1eabn kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 di chuy\u1ec3n \u0111i l\u1ea1i hay ng\u1ee7 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c v\u00e0 v\u1eabn ph\u1ea3i ng\u1ed3i tr\u00ean m\u1ed9t chi\u1ebfc xe l\u0103n u\u1ed1ng th\u00eam nhi\u1ec1u h\u01a1n c\u00e1c thu\u1ed1c gi\u1ea3m \u0111au. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 \u0111i \u0111\u1ebfn g\u1eb7p m\u1ed9t nh\u00e0 tr\u1ecb li\u1ec7u b\u1eb1ng n\u0103ng l\u01b0\u1ee3ng v\u0169 tr\u1ee5 reiki v\u00e0 c\u00f4 \u1ea5y n\u00f3i t\u00f4i c\u00f3 m\u1ed9t lu\u1ed3n \u00e1m kh\u00ed \u0111en xung quanh v\u00f9ng h\u00f4ng v\u00e0 b\u1ee5ng. Khi c\u00f4 \u1ea5y b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u tri\u1ec3n khai tr\u1ecb li\u1ec7u cho t\u00f4i, t\u00f4i c\u1ea3m th\u1ea5y r\u1ea5t s\u1ee3 h\u00e3i v\u00e0 c\u00f3 nhi\u1ec1u \u1ea3o t\u01b0\u1edfng th\u1ea5y nhi\u1ec1u con r\u1eafn l\u1edbn v\u00e0 m\u1ed9t ph\u01b0\u1ee3ng ho\u00e0ng tr\u1ed7i d\u1eady. (Ch\u00fa th\u00edch c\u1ee7a so\u1ea1n gi\u1ea3: Khi ch\u00fang ta th\u1ea5y r\u1eafn, n\u00f3 c\u00f3 ngh\u0129a l\u00e0 ch\u00fang ta b\u1ecb v\u1ea5n n\u1ea1n tr\u1ea7m tr\u1ecdng t\u1eeb t\u1ed5 ti\u00ean \u0111\u00e3 khu\u1ea5t.) T\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u kh\u00f3c v\u00e0 gi\u1ea3i ph\u00f3ng ra s\u1ef1 \u0111au \u0111\u1edbn.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i ly th\u00e2n v\u1edbi ch\u1ed3ng v\u00ec anh \u1ea5y d\u1ea7n tr\u1edf n\u00ean b\u1ea1o l\u1ef1c v\u00e0 t\u00f4i c\u0169ng \u0111\u00e3 c\u00f3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c d\u0169ng kh\u00ed \u0111\u1ec3 l\u00e0m vi\u1ec7c n\u00e0y. T\u00f4i tin r\u1eb1ng Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf \u0111\u00e3 cho t\u00f4i suy ngh\u0129 r\u1eb1ng h\u00e3y \u0111\u1ee9ng d\u1eady v\u00e0 d\u00f9ng c\u00e1i n\u1ea1ng \u0111\u1ec3 di chuy\u1ec3n \u0111i l\u1ea1i. T\u00f4i c\u1ed1 ch\u1ecbu l\u1ea5y s\u1ef1 \u0111au \u0111\u1edbn v\u00e0 t\u1eeb t\u1eeb c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 \u0111i l\u1ea1i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c, v\u00e0 sau \u0111\u00f3 ch\u1ea1y v\u00e0 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf th\u00e2n th\u1ec3 t\u00f4i d\u1ea7n h\u1ed3i ph\u1ee5c.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i v\u1eabn c\u00f2n u\u1ed1ng r\u01b0\u1ee3u, nh\u01b0ng \u00edt \u0111i. Trong kho\u1ea3ng th\u1eddi gian ng\u1eafn, t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 g\u1ec9\u1ea3i ph\u1eabu kh\u1ed1i u b\u01b0\u1edbu, b\u1ecb s\u1ea9y thai, su\u00fdt b\u1ecb m\u1ea5t c\u0103n nh\u00e0 v\u00e0 \u0111i h\u1eb9n h\u00f2 v\u00e0 ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u00e0n \u00f4ng \u1ea5y \u0111\u00e3 c\u01b0\u1ee1ng hi\u1ebfp t\u00f4i- t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 \u1edf t\u1eadn \u0111\u00e1y c\u1ee7a cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi. Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf \u0111\u00e3 cho t\u00f4i \u00fd ngh\u0129 \u0111\u01b0a m\u00ecnh ta kh\u1ecfi c\u00e1c lo\u1ea1i thu\u1ed1c gi\u1ea3m \u0111au v\u00e0 t\u1eeb b\u1ecf r\u01b0\u1ee3u v\u00e0 thu\u1ed1c l\u00e1.<\/p>\n Qu\u00e1 tr\u00ecnh n\u00e0y di\u1ec5n ra trong v\u00f2ng 3 th\u00e1ng v\u00e0 n\u00f3 r\u1ea5t ch\u00f4ng gai. T\u00f4i b\u1ea5y gi\u1edd \u0111\u00e3 ng\u1ed9 r\u1eb1ng m\u00ecnh b\u1ecb nghi\u1ec7n r\u01b0\u1ee3u nghi\u00eam tr\u1ecdng v\u00e0 \u0111\u00e3 quay l\u1ea1i l\u1edbp h\u1ecdc Cai R\u01b0\u1ee3u \u1ea8n Danh. T\u00f4i v\u1eabn ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n v\u00e0 an to\u1ea1 trong ngu\u1ed3n s\u00e1ng b\u1ea5t t\u1eadn c\u1ee7a Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf m\u1ed7i \u0111\u00eam. T\u00f4i tr\u1edf n\u00ean r\u1ea5t h\u1ee9ng th\u00fa t\u00ecm hi\u1ec3u ngu\u1ed3n n\u0103ng l\u01b0\u1ee3ng vi di\u1ec7u n\u00e0y l\u00e0 g\u00ec.<\/p>\n (Ch\u00fa th\u00edch c\u1ee7a so\u1ea1n gi\u1ea3: Nh\u1eefng \u0111au \u0111\u1edbn nh\u01b0 b\u00ean tr\u00ean l\u00e0 do v\u1eadn m\u1ec7nh<\/a> cay nghi\u1ec7t v\u00e0 b\u1ecb s\u1ef1 qu\u1ea5y ph\u00e1 c\u1ee7a t\u1ed5 ti\u00ean \u0111\u00e3 khu\u1ea5t<\/u> r\u1ea5t nghi\u00eam tr\u1ecdng.)<\/p>\n S\u1ef1 tu t\u1eadp<\/a> c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u t\u1eeb th\u00e1ng t\u01b0 n\u0103m 2011. T\u00f4i t\u00ecm th\u1ea5y trang web c\u1ee7a SSRF sau khi t\u00ecm ki\u1ebfm l\u1eddi gi\u1ea3i th\u00edch cho hi\u1ec7n t\u01b0\u1ee3ng ngu\u1ed3n s\u00e1ng \u1ea5m \u00e1p khi ng\u1ed3i thi\u1ec1n. V\u1eeba khi \u0111\u1ecdc nh\u1eefng ch\u1eef tr\u00ean trang web t\u00f4i c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u00dd Th\u1ee9c Thi\u00eang Li\u00eang\u00a0 v\u00e0 nh\u01b0 l\u00e0 m\u00ecnh \u0111\u00e3 quay tr\u1edf v\u1ec1 nh\u00e0. T\u00f4i \u0111\u1ecdc nhi\u1ec1u b\u00e0i tr\u00ean trang web 4-5 ti\u1ebfng m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y v\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng ng\u1eebng email h\u1ecfi v\u1ec1 nh\u1eefng th\u1eafc m\u1eafc khi \u0111\u1ecdc.<\/p>\n Kho\u1ea3nh kh\u1eafc ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 s\u1ef1 chuy\u1ec3n ho\u00e1 tuy\u1ec7t di\u1ec7u trong \u0111\u1eddi t\u00f4i. Theo h\u01b0\u1edbng d\u1eabn, t\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u ni\u1ec7m c\u00e2u Shri Gurudev Datta<\/a> m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y 2 ti\u1ebfng trong tu\u1ea7n \u0111\u1ea7u ti\u00ean v\u00e0 sau \u0111\u00f3 t\u00f4i th\u1ea5y r\u1eb1ng m\u00ecnh c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 v\u1eeba ni\u1ec7m v\u1eeba l\u00e0m vi\u1ec7c, nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf t\u00f4i ni\u1ec7m c\u1ea3 ng\u00e0y.<\/p>\n Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf ngay l\u1eadp t\u1ee9c chuy\u1ec3n c\u00e2u ni\u1ec7m t\u1eeb \u0111\u1ea7u \u00f3c v\u00e0o tim c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c ban \u01a1n v\u1edbi c\u1ea3m x\u00fac thi\u00eang li\u00eang<\/a> v\u00e0 khi n\u00f3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c t\u0103ng l\u00ean t\u00f4i c\u00f3 nhi\u1ec1u s\u1ef1 khao kh\u00e1t \u0111\u1ec3 ni\u1ec7m. V\u00e0o m\u1ed9t bu\u1ed5i s\u00e1ng khi v\u1eeba th\u1ee9c gi\u1ea5c, t\u00f4i quy m\u1ea1ng l\u1ec5 l\u00ean cho Ng\u00e0i v\u00e0 c\u1ea7u mong Ng\u00e0i gi\u00fap d\u1eabn d\u1eaft t\u01b0 t\u01b0\u1edfng c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i th\u00e0nh k\u00ednh kh\u1ea9n c\u1ea7u ng\u00e0i l\u1ea5y \u0111i nh\u1eefng kh\u00f3 kh\u0103n th\u1eed th\u00e1ch khi m\u00e0 t\u00f4i s\u1ebd \u0111i tr\u00ean con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng m\u00e0 Ng\u00e0i \u0111\u00e3 ch\u1ecdn cho t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i kh\u1ea9n c\u1ea7u Ng\u00e0i d\u1eabn d\u1eaft t\u00f4i v\u00e0 nh\u1eefng g\u00ec Ng\u00e0i \u0111\u00e3 an b\u00e0i trong ng\u00e0y \u0111\u00f3 cho t\u00f4i v\u00e0 cho Ng\u00e0i bi\u1ebft t\u00f4i r\u1ea5t y\u00eau qu\u00fd Ng\u00e0i v\u00e0 s\u1ebd lu\u00f4n t\u00ecm ra nh\u1eefng c\u1ea3m x\u00fac d\u1ecbu d\u00e0ng m\u00e0 Ng\u00e0i bang cho t\u00f4i v\u00e0 n\u00f3i cho t\u00f4i bi\u1ebft r\u1eb1ng t\u00f4i \u0111ang thi h\u00e0nh s\u1ee9 m\u1ec7nh c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i. T\u00f4i th\u00e0nh t\u00e2m c\u1ea3m t\u1ea1 v\u00ec s\u1ef1 hi\u1ec7n di\u1ec7n c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i.<\/p>\n L\u1ecbch tr\u00ecnh h\u1eb1ng ng\u00e0y c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i nh\u01b0 sau: T\u00f4i ni\u1ec7m Shri Gurudev Datta kho\u1ea3ng 20 ph\u00fat sau \u0111\u00f3 l\u00e0 bi\u1ec7n ph\u00e1p tr\u1ecb li\u1ec7u t\u00e2m linh b\u1eb1ng n\u01b0\u1edbc mu\u1ed1i<\/a>\u00a0\u0111\u1ec3 h\u1ea1n ch\u1ebf th\u1ebf l\u1ef1c t\u00e0 ma\/vong h\u1ed3n c\u1ee7a t\u1ed5 ti\u00ean \u0111\u00e3 khu\u1ea5t v\u00e0 b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u m\u1ed9t ng\u00e0y khi \u0111i b\u1ed9 v\u1edbi c\u00e1c con. T\u00f4i t\u1eebng \u0111\u1eb7t \u0111\u1ed3ng h\u1ed3 b\u00e1o th\u1ee9c \u0111\u1ec3 s\u1eafp x\u1ebfp th\u1eddi gian cho s\u1ef1 tu t\u1eadp c\u1ee7a m\u00ecnh v\u00e0 l\u1eadp k\u1ebf ho\u1ea1ch c\u1ee5 th\u1ec3. T\u00f4i ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c ni\u1ec7m Shri Gurudev Datta v\u00e0 quy m\u1ea1ng l\u1ec5 trong c\u00e1c l\u1eddi c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n th\u01b0\u1eddng xuy\u00ean \u0111\u1ec3 t\u01b0 t\u01b0\u1edfng v\u00e0 t\u00e2m tr\u00ed t\u00f4i tan bi\u1ebfn. V\u00e0o l\u00fac 2 gi\u1edd tr\u01b0a, t\u00f4i c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n v\u00e0 b\u00e0y t\u1ecf l\u00f2ng bi\u1ebft \u01a1n \u0111\u1ebfn Ng\u00e0i Datta v\u00ec nh\u1edd Ng\u00e0i m\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c ni\u1ec7m danh hi\u1ec7u c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i trong an l\u1ea1c. Sau \u0111\u00f3 t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ea3nh l\u1ec5 namaskar<\/a> \u0111\u1ebfn \u0110\u1ea5ng Krishna v\u00e0 xin ph\u00e9p \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c ni\u1ec7m c\u00e2u Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya<\/a> v\u00e0 ti\u1ebfp ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c duy tr\u00ec c\u00e2u ni\u1ec7m n\u00e0y cho \u0111\u1ebfn khi \u0111i ng\u1ee7.<\/p>\n C\u00e1c con trai t\u00f4i c\u0169ng th\u1ef1c h\u00e0nh tr\u1ecb li\u1ec7u ng\u00e2m ch\u00e2n trong n\u01b0\u1edbc mu\u1ed1i m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y. T\u00f4i c\u0169ng ti\u1ebfn h\u00e0nh tr\u1ecb li\u1ec7u n\u01b0\u1edbc mu\u1ed1i l\u1ea7n n\u1eefa tr\u01b0\u1edbc khi \u0111i ng\u1ee7 v\u00e0 c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n l\u00ean Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf v\u00ec Ng\u00e0i \u0111\u00e3 \u1edf b\u00ean c\u1ea1nh t\u00f4i c\u1ea3 ng\u00e0y v\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c c\u00f3 c\u01a1 h\u1ed9i th\u0103ng ti\u1ebfn t\u00e2m linh. T\u00f4i v\u1eabn th\u01b0\u1eddng c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n li\u00ean t\u1ee5c trong ng\u00e0y cho m\u1ed7i ch\u1ee7 \u00fd \u0111\u1eb1ng sau c\u00e1c h\u00e0nh \u0111\u1ed9ng c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u00e0 xem coi ch\u00fang c\u00f3 kh\u1ebf \u1ee9ng v\u1edbi nh\u1eefng g\u00ec Ng\u00e0i mu\u1ed1n hay kh\u00f4ng v\u00e0 s\u1ebd x\u00e1m h\u1ed1i cho nh\u1eefng l\u1ed7i l\u1ea7m m\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 g\u00e2y ra \u2013 ch\u00fang c\u0169ng nh\u01b0 l\u00e0 s\u1ef1 qu\u00e1n chi\u1ebfu n\u1ed9i t\u00e2m c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u1eady. T\u00f4i c\u1ed1 g\u1eafng \u0111i theo l\u1ecbch tr\u00ecnh n\u00e0y nh\u01b0ng b\u1edfi do s\u1ef1 b\u1ea5t an \u0111\u1ebfn t\u1eeb th\u1ebf l\u1ef1c t\u00e0 ma<\/u> v\u00e0 s\u1ef1 th\u1eadt r\u1eb1ng t\u00f4i l\u00e0 con ng\u01b0\u1eddi v\u00e0 d\u0129 nhi\u00ean kh\u00f4ng ho\u00e0n h\u1ea3o, t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 ni\u1ec7m xuy\u00ean su\u1ed1t nh\u01b0 k\u1ebf ho\u1ea1ch m\u00ecnh \u0111\u00e3 \u0111\u1eb7t ra. \u0110i\u1ec3m ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 t\u00f4i th\u1ef1c hi\u1ec7n t\u1ed1t nh\u1ea5t nh\u1eefng g\u00ec m\u00ecnh c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 v\u00ec \u0111\u00e2y ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 m\u1ee5c \u0111\u00edch ch\u00ednh cho cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i<\/a>. T\u00f4i r\u1ea5t y\u00eau qu\u00fd Ng\u00e0i. Ch\u1ec9 sau 1 tu\u1ea7n tu t\u1eadp theo ph\u01b0\u01a1ng ph\u00e1p n\u00e0y, khi \u0111ang l\u00e1i xe tr\u00ean \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng, t\u00f4i c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c m\u1ed9t l\u00e0n s\u00f3ng v\u00e0 d\u01b0\u1eddng nh\u01b0 c\u00f3 m\u1ed9t t\u00ecnh y\u00eau tinh khi\u1ebft b\u00ecnh th\u1ea3n tr\u00f4i \u0111\u1ebfn t\u00f4i nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t ng\u1ecdn gi\u00f3 nh\u1eb9 v\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 c\u1ea3m t\u1ea1 Ng\u00e0i, hi\u1ec7n t\u01b0\u1ee3ng n\u00e0y v\u1eabn ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c di\u1ec5n ra. Sau n\u00e0y t\u00f4i m\u1edbi bi\u1ebft \u0111\u00e2y ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 c\u1ea3m x\u00fac thi\u00eang li\u00eang<\/a>.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c g\u1eedi g\u1eafm cho m\u1ed9t h\u00e0nh gi\u1ea3 d\u1eabn d\u1eaft v\u00e0 tham gia satsangs c\u1ed9ng \u0111\u1ed3ng<\/a>\u00a0m\u1ed7i tu\u1ea7n. V\u00e0o nh\u1eefng th\u00e1ng \u0111\u1ea7u, t\u00f4i c\u1ea3m th\u1ea5y m\u1ed9t s\u1ef1 tranh \u0111\u1ea5u gi\u1eefa c\u00e1c th\u1ebf l\u1ef1c t\u00e0 ma v\u00e0 b\u1ea3n th\u00e2n t\u00f4i nh\u01b0ng t\u00f4i v\u1eabn b\u1ec1n l\u00f2ng. V\u00e0o l\u00fac \u0111\u00f3, c\u00e1c con c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u1eabn c\u00f2n nh\u1ecf v\u00e0 t\u00f4i ph\u1ea3i nu\u00f4i n\u1ea5ng ch\u00fang m\u1ed9t m\u00ecnh v\u1edbi nhi\u1ec1u c\u1ea3m x\u00fac v\u00e0 r\u1eafc r\u1ed1i t\u00e2m l\u00fd b\u1edfi do v\u1eadn m\u1ec7nh kh\u00f3 kh\u0103n c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u00e0 r\u1eafc r\u1ed1i do c\u00e1c t\u1ed5 ti\u00ean \u0111\u00e3 khu\u1ea5t, qu\u1ea3 th\u1eadt l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t tr\u1ea3i nghi\u1ec7m tuy\u1ec7t v\u1eddi, tuy v\u1eady n\u00f3 c\u0169ng tho\u00e1ng qua nhanh. T\u00f4i c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c s\u1ef1 h\u1ea1nh ph\u00fac v\u00e0 thong dong t\u1ef1 t\u1ea1i m\u00e0 t\u00f4i ch\u01b0a bao gi\u1edd c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c trong \u0111\u1eddi v\u00e0 t\u00f4i c\u0169ng \u0111\u00e3 hi\u1ec3u \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c t\u00ecnh y\u00eau th\u01b0\u01a1ng l\u00e0 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf n\u00e0o. T\u00f4i n\u00f3i chuy\u1ec7n v\u1edbi ng\u01b0\u1eddi h\u00e0nh gi\u1ea3 d\u1eabn d\u1eaft t\u00f4i tr\u00ean Skype m\u1ed7i 3 ng\u00e0y \u0111\u1ec3 anh \u1ea5y h\u1ed7 tr\u1ee3 t\u00f4i v\u1edbi nh\u1eefng thay \u0111\u1ed5i th\u1ea5t th\u01b0\u1eddng, nh\u1eefng c\u1ea3m gi\u00e1c m\u1edbi l\u1ea1 t\u00f4i c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c v\u00e0 c\u00e1c bi\u1ec7n ph\u00e1p ch\u1eefa tr\u1ecb m\u1ed7i khi t\u00f4i b\u1ecb phi\u1ec1n mu\u1ed9n.<\/p>\n T\u00f4i c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c nh\u1eefng \u01b0u \u0111i\u1ec3m m\u1edbi nh\u01b0 l\u00e0 tinh th\u1ea7n quy\u1ebft chi\u1ebfn, s\u1ef1 v\u00e2ng l\u1eddi, quy m\u1ea1ng cho Ng\u00e0i v\u00e0 l\u00f2ng tin m\u00e3nh li\u1ec7t r\u1eb1ng Ng\u00e0i lu\u00f4n hi\u1ec7n di\u1ec7n \u0111\u1ec3 b\u1ea3o v\u1ec7 v\u00e0 khai ng\u1ed9 cho t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng kho\u1ea3nh kh\u1eaft thanh b\u00ecnh v\u00e0 nh\u1eefng ng\u01b0\u1eddi xung quanh c\u0169ng c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111i\u1ec1u n\u00e0y, h\u1ecfi t\u00f4i r\u1eb1ng sao t\u00f4i to\u00e1t ra m\u1ed9t n\u00e9t r\u1ea5t hoan h\u1ef7. T\u00f4i chia s\u1ebb r\u1ea5t c\u1edfi m\u1edf v\u1edbi h\u1ecd v\u1ec1 vi\u1ec7c ni\u1ec7m<\/a>\u00a0Th\u01b0\u1ee3ng \u0110\u1ebf v\u00e0 s\u1ebd tr\u1ea3 l\u1eddi cho c\u00e1c c\u00e2u h\u1ecfi c\u1ee7a h\u1ecd khi t\u00f4i v\u1ec1 nh\u00e0 v\u00e0 t\u00ecm ki\u1ebfm tr\u00ean SSRF website v\u00e0 h\u1ecfi ng\u01b0\u1eddi h\u00e0nh gi\u1ea3 d\u1eabn d\u1eaft t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ec3 c\u00f3 c\u00e2u tr\u1ea3 l\u1eddi. Trong v\u00f2ng n\u0103m \u0111\u1ea7u ti\u00ean, T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 c\u1ea7u Ng\u00e0i h\u00e3y \u0111\u1ec3 vi\u1ec7c ni\u1ec7m trong tim t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u1ea7u \u00f3c t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c t\u1eadn d\u1ee5ng cho vi\u1ec7c truy\u1ec1n b\u00e1 Ph\u00e1p v\u00e0 n\u00f3 \u0111\u00e3 v\u1eabn c\u1ee9 nh\u01b0 v\u1eady. L\u00f2ng th\u00e0nh kh\u1ea9n \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c t\u0103ng tr\u01b0\u1edfng t\u00e2m linh r\u1ea5t m\u00e3nh li\u1ec7t v\u00e0 n\u00f3 kh\u00f4ng h\u1ec1 gi\u1ea3m thi\u1ec3u. (Ch\u00fa gi\u1ea3i c\u1ee7a so\u1ea1n gi\u1ea3: Khi m\u1ed9t h\u00e0nh gi\u1ea3 c\u00f3 t\u00edn t\u00e2m m\u00e3nh li\u1ec7t \u0111\u1ec3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c gi\u00e1c ng\u1ed9 gi\u1ea3i tho\u00e1t, Ng\u00e0i \u1ea5y s\u1ebd ra tay c\u1ee9u gi\u00fap d\u00f9 cho v\u1eadn m\u1ec7nh c\u00f3 kh\u1eafc nghi\u1ec7t t\u1edbi \u0111\u00e2u.)<\/p>\n Kh\u00f4ng l\u00e2u sau t\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u tham gia l\u1edbp satsang v\u1edbi c\u00e1c h\u00e0nh gi\u1ea3 t\u1eeb Anh qu\u1ed1c. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c d\u1eabn d\u1eaft c\u00f9ng v\u1edbi nhau m\u1ed7i tu\u1ea7n trong l\u1edbp satsang n\u00e0y. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u qu\u00e1 tr\u00ecnh s\u1eeda \u0111\u1ed5i khuy\u1ebft \u0111i\u1ec3m c\u1ee7a t\u00ednh c\u00e1ch<\/a>\u00a0khi m\u00e0 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i s\u1ebd qu\u00e1n x\u00e9t v\u00e0 thu th\u1eadp nh\u1eefng sai l\u1ea7m v\u00e0 th\u1ef1c hi\u1ec7n s\u1ef1 t\u1ef1 g\u1ee3i \u00fd (AS). Qu\u00e1 tr\u00ecnh n\u00e0y r\u1ea5t gian nan khi m\u1edbi b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u nh\u01b0ng l\u1ea1i c\u00f3 r\u1ea5t nhi\u1ec1u l\u1ee3i l\u1ea1c to l\u1edbn. S\u1ef1 nh\u1eadn bi\u1ebft v\u1ec1 c\u00e1c khuy\u1ebft \u0111i\u1ec3m t\u00ednh c\u00e1ch c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i d\u1ea7n tr\u1edf n\u00ean nh\u1ea1y b\u00e9n h\u01a1n v\u00e0 t\u00f4i c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 nh\u00ecn th\u1ea5y l\u1ea7n \u0111\u1ea7u ti\u00ean trong \u0111\u1eddi sao t\u00f4i l\u1ea1i x\u1eed s\u1ef1\/c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng \u00fd ngh\u0129 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf. Ng\u00e0i \u0111\u00e3 chuy\u1ec3n ho\u00e1 v\u00e0 d\u1ea1y d\u1ed7 cho nh\u1eefng \u00e1c t\u00ednh c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i v\u00e0 c\u0169ng ch\u00ednh v\u00ec th\u1ebf cu\u1ed9c s\u1ed1ng c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i b\u1ea5y gi\u1edd tr\u1edf n\u00ean \u00eam \u0111\u1ec1m h\u01a1n. Nh\u1eefng v\u1ea5n \u0111\u1ec1 m\u00e0 t\u00f4i ph\u1ea3i \u0111\u1ed1i m\u1eb7t \u0111a ph\u1ea7n l\u00e0 do ph\u1ea3n \u1ee9ng c\u1ee7a nh\u1eefng \u00e1c t\u00ednh v\u00e0 b\u1ea3n ng\u00e3. Nhi\u1ec1u kho\u1ea3ng th\u1eddi gian thanh b\u00ecnh \u0111\u00e3 b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u.<\/p>\n T\u1ed1i \u0111\u00e3 b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u th\u1ef1c t\u1eadp nhi\u1ec1u h\u01a1n vi\u1ec7c v\u1eeba ng\u1ed3i v\u1eeba ni\u1ec7m v\u1edbi s\u1ef1 t\u1eadp trung cao v\u00e0 t\u0103ng l\u00ean c\u00e1c ph\u01b0\u01a1ng ph\u00e1p ch\u1eefa tr\u1ecb t\u00e2m linh <\/a>\u0111\u1ec3 b\u1ea3o v\u1ec7 t\u00f4i ra kh\u1ecfi c\u00e1c th\u1ebf l\u1ef1c t\u00e0 ma. T\u00ecnh c\u1ea3m gi\u1eefa t\u00f4i v\u1edbi hai \u0111\u1ee9a con trai tr\u1edf n\u00ean g\u1ea7n g\u0169i h\u01a1n v\u00e0 nhi\u1ec1u t\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u01a1ng v\u00ec ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111ang tu t\u1eadp v\u00e0 t\u00f4i c\u0169ng chia s\u1ebd h\u1ebft nh\u1eefng g\u00ec t\u00f4i h\u1ecdc \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c cho ch\u00fang m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y. T\u00f4i v\u1eabn ph\u1ea3i tr\u1ea3 nghi\u1ec7p theo nh\u01b0 \u0111\u1ecbnh m\u1ec7nh \u0111\u00e3 an b\u00e0i \u1edf d\u1ea1ng b\u1ec7nh t\u1eadt v\u00e0 t\u00e0i ch\u00ednh kh\u00f4ng \u1ed5n \u0111\u1ecbnh tuy nhi\u00ean m\u1ecdi th\u1ee9 \u0111\u1ec1u gi\u1ea3m \u0111i \u0111\u1ebfn \u0111\u00e1ng k\u1ec3 do ch\u00fang t\u00f4i c\u00f3 s\u1ef1 tu t\u1eadp. Th\u1eddi gian d\u1ea7n tr\u00f4i, t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 c\u00f3 m\u1ed9t gi\u1ea5c ng\u1ee7 ngon \u0111\u1ebfn s\u00e1ng v\u00e0 kh\u1ea3 n\u0103ng ch\u1ea5p nh\u1eadn s\u1ed1 ph\u1eadn c\u0169ng t\u0103ng l\u00ean, ch\u00ednh v\u00ec th\u1ebf s\u1ef1 h\u1ea1nh ph\u00fac \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c duy tr\u00ec m\u00e0 c\u00f2n m\u00e3nh li\u1ec7t h\u01a1n tr\u01b0\u1edbc n\u1eefa.<\/p>\n C\u0169ng v\u00e0o n\u0103m \u1ea5y th\u1eadt t\u1ed1t l\u00e0nh khi t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c tham d\u1ef1 m\u1ed9t l\u1edbp c\u1ee7a h\u1ed9i SSRF b\u00ean Anh c\u00f9ng v\u1edbi c\u00e1c h\u1ed9i vi\u00ean. \u0110\u1ee9c Th\u00e1nh C\u00f4 Lola Vezilic \u0111\u00e3 d\u1eabn d\u1eaft cho ch\u00fang t\u00f4i v\u00e0 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf ni\u1ec1m khao kh\u00e1t gi\u00e1c ng\u1ed9 gi\u1ea3i tho\u00e1t c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i tr\u1edf n\u00ean m\u00e3nh li\u1ec7t h\u01a1n. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 th\u1ea5y c\u00e1c h\u1ea1t ph\u00e2n t\u1eed linh thi\u00eang<\/u> nhi\u1ec1u m\u00e0u s\u1eafc tr\u00ean ng\u01b0\u1eddi t\u00f4i v\u00e0 m\u1ed9t c\u1ed9ng l\u00f4ng chim c\u00f4ng tr\u00ean c\u00e1nh c\u1eeda khi t\u00f4i tr\u1edf v\u1ec1 t\u1eeb l\u1edbp h\u1ecdc c\u1ee7a SSRF. C\u0169ng v\u00e0o n\u0103m \u1ea5y, nh\u1eefng v\u1ecb B\u1ed5n T\u00f4n m\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 ni\u1ec7m theo danh hi\u1ec7u c\u1ee7a c\u00e1c Ng\u00e0i th\u1ecb hi\u1ec7n ra tr\u01b0\u1edbc t\u00f4i v\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 d\u00e2ng hi\u1ebfn to\u00e0n th\u00e2n t\u00e2m \u0111\u1eb7c bi\u1ec7t l\u00e0 th\u00e2n v\u00f4 h\u00ecnh<\/u>, d\u01b0\u1edbi ch\u00e2n c\u1ee7a c\u00e1c Ng\u00e0i. \u0110i\u1ec1u n\u00e0y \u0111\u00e3 l\u00e0m t\u0103ng l\u00ean s\u1ef1 h\u1ef7 l\u1ea1c<\/u>. H\u01a1n th\u1ebf n\u1eefa, \u0111\u00e2y c\u0169ng ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 ph\u01b0\u01a1ng th\u1ee9c \u0111\u1ec3 ngh\u1ec9 ng\u01a1i trong nh\u1eefng kho\u1ea3ng th\u1eddi gian kh\u00f3 kh\u0103n phi\u1ec1n mu\u1ed9n, \u0111\u1ec3 t\u00f4i nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c s\u1ef1 g\u1ea7n g\u0169i c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i v\u00e0 s\u1ef1 b\u1ea3o v\u1ec7. T\u00f4i th\u01b0\u1eddng xuy\u00ean nh\u1eadn th\u1ea5y nhi\u1ec1u m\u00f9i h\u01b0\u01a1ng vi t\u1ebf<\/u>. Tr\u00ean th\u1ef1c t\u1ebf, t\u1ea5t c\u1ea3 c\u00e1c gi\u00e1c quan vi t\u1ebf c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i tr\u1edf n\u00ean nh\u1ea1y b\u00e9n h\u01a1n m\u1ed9t ch\u00fat.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u0110\u00e2y ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 th\u1eddi \u0111i\u1ec3m m\u00e0 kho\u1ea3nh kh\u1eafc thanh t\u1ecbnh v\u00e0 h\u1ef7 l\u1ea1c k\u00e9o d\u00e0i ra. S\u1ef1 l\u1ea1c quan v\u00e0 h\u1ea1nh ph\u00fac ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn ch\u00ednh. C\u00f3 m\u1ed9t c\u1ea3m gi\u00e1c r\u1eb1ng t\u00f4i m\u1ed9t n\u1eeda \u1edf trong th\u1ebf gi\u1edbi n\u00e0y v\u00e0 n\u1eeda c\u00f2n l\u1ea1i \u0111ang an tr\u1ee5 trong c\u00f5i gi\u1edbi c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i \u0111ang ng\u1ef1 tr\u1ecb. B\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u t\u1eeb \u0111\u00e2y t\u00f4i lu\u00f4n \u1edf trong s\u1ef1 li\u00ean k\u1ebft v\u1edbi Ng\u00e0i. T\u00f4i th\u01b0\u1eddng h\u1ecfi\/qu\u00e1n chi\u1ebfu n\u1ed9i t\u00e2m xem Ng\u00e0i \u0111ang ngh\u0129 nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf n\u00e0o v\u00e0 cho l\u1eddi gi\u1ea3i th\u00edch cho c\u00e1c s\u1ef1 v\u1eadt s\u1ef1 vi\u1ec7c x\u1ea3y ra. C\u00f3 m\u1ed9t c\u1ea3m gi\u00e1c l\u00e0 m\u1ecdi th\u1ee9 s\u1ebd \u1ed5n th\u00f4i, n\u1ed7i s\u1ee3 h\u00e3i \u0111\u00e3 tan bi\u1ebfn b\u1edfi do m\u1ed9t ni\u1ec1m tin m\u00e3nh li\u1ec7t v\u00e0 c\u1ea3m gi\u00e1c r\u1eb1ng Th\u1ebf T\u00f4n \u0111\u00e3 v\u1eabn lu\u00f4n th\u1ecb hi\u1ec7n v\u00e0 che ch\u1edf cho t\u00f4i. Khi suy ngh\u0129 ti\u00eau c\u1ef1c di\u1ec5n ra, n\u00f3 kh\u00f4ng ho\u00e0nh h\u00e0nh \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c l\u00e2u v\u00ec Ng\u00e0i \u0111\u00e3 cho t\u00f4i nhi\u1ec1u c\u00e1ch gi\u1ea3i quy\u1ebft th\u00f4ng qua kinh nghi\u1ec7m t\u1eebng tr\u1ea3i v\u00e0 c\u1ee7a c\u00e1c h\u00e0nh gi\u1ea3 t\u1eeb SSRF. M\u1ed9t t\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u01a1ng r\u1ed9ng l\u1edbn v\u00e0 s\u1ef1 \u0111\u1ed3ng l\u00f2ng \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn t\u1eeb c\u00e1c h\u00e0nh gi\u1ea3 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i v\u00e0 ni\u1ec1m khao kh\u00e1t \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c th\u0103ng ti\u1ebfn chung v\u1edbi nhau. T\u00f4i c\u1ea3m th\u1ea5y r\u1ea5t m\u1ea1nh m\u1ebd v\u00e0 c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 \u0111\u1ed1i m\u1eb7t v\u1edbi m\u1ecdi vi\u1ec7c v\u00ec t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n b\u1ecb nhi\u1ec1u c\u1ea3m x\u00fac tr\u1ed7i d\u1eady. T\u00f4i tr\u1edf th\u00e0nh m\u1ed9t \u0111\u1ee9a con h\u1eefu \u00edch c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i v\u00e0 c\u0169ng gi\u00fap \u00edch cho c\u00e1c ng\u01b0\u1eddi kh\u00e1c khi Ng\u00e0i \u0111\u01b0a \u0111\u1ebfn tr\u00ean \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng t\u00f4i \u0111ang \u0111i. Ch\u1eb7n \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng t\u00ecm c\u1ea7u gi\u00e1c ng\u1ed9 gi\u1ea3i tho\u00e1t tuy v\u1eabn c\u00f2n d\u00e0i tuy nhi\u00ean t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111i \u0111\u1ebfn m\u1ed9t n\u01a1i m\u00e0 t\u00f4i ch\u01b0a bao gi\u1edd c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 h\u00ecnh dung ra! \u0110i\u1ec1u n\u00e0y ch\u1ec9 c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 do \u01a0n Hu\u1ec7 v\u0129 \u0111\u1ea1i c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i v\u00e0 m\u1ed9t ph\u1ea7n r\u1ea5t nh\u1ecf l\u00e0 do s\u1ef1 t\u1ea1o t\u00e1c c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 ng\u1ed9 ra r\u1eb1ng nh\u1edd v\u00e0o h\u1ed3ng \u00e2n c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i m\u00e0 t\u00f4i m\u1edbi c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111i tr\u00ean con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng n\u00e0y v\u00e0 s\u1ebd ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c \u0111i ti\u1ebfp theo nh\u01b0 s\u1ef1 mong \u01b0\u1edbc c\u1ee7a Ng\u00e0i. T\u00f4i s\u1ebd c\u1ee9 tinh t\u1ea5n tu t\u1eadp. \u0110\u00e2y l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t \u0111i\u1ec1u v\u00f4 c\u00f9ng tuy\u1ec7t di\u1ec7u \u0111\u1ec3 m\u00e0 t\u00f4i c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 \u1edf v\u1ecb tr\u00ed hi\u1ec7n nay, t\u1eeb m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi ho\u00e0n to\u00e0n s\u1ee5p \u0111\u1ed5, tr\u1ea7m c\u1ea3m n\u1eb7ng v\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n thi\u1ebft s\u1ed1ng 3 n\u0103m tr\u01b0\u1edbc. T\u00f4i ch\u1ec9 c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 th\u00e0nh t\u00e2m tri \u00e2n \u0111\u1ebfn Ng\u00e0i.<\/p>\n Contents1. Gi\u1edbi thi\u1ec7u v\u1ec1 nghi\u1ec7n c\u1ef1c \u0111\u1ed9 v\u00e0 \u0111au kh\u1ed52. L\u1eddi c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n nh\u01b0 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t v\u00ec c\u1ee9u tinh3. T\u00ecm th\u1ea5y SSRF4. Tu t\u1eadp m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y5. N\u0103m \u0111\u1ea7u ti\u00ean c\u1ee7a s\u1ef1 tu t\u1eadp \u2013 ki\u00ean tr\u00ec6. N\u0103m th\u1ee9 hai c\u1ee7a s\u1ef1 tu t\u1eadp – nh\u1eefng c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn t\u00e2m linh7. N\u0103m th\u1ee9 ba – \u0110\u1ee9c … Ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c \u0111\u1ecdc T\u1eeb nghi\u1ec7n c\u1ef1c \u0111\u1ed9 v\u00e0 \u0111au kh\u1ed5 chuy\u1ec3n h\u00f3a th\u00e0nh H\u1ef7 L\u1ea1c<\/span> ![\"Angela](\"https:\/\/media.spiritualresearchfoundation.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/04\/18141515\/Angela_1992.jpg\" "\\"\\"")
<\/a>Khi t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c 22 tu\u1ed5i, t\u00f4i t\u00ecm th\u1ea5y ch\u1ea5t g\u00e2y nghi\u1ec7n. T\u00f4i ti\u00eau th\u1ee5 \u2018thu\u1ed1c l\u1eafc\u2019 (MDMA l\u00e0 t\u00ean khoa h\u1ecdc) v\u00e0 \u2018h\u1ed3ng phi\u1ebfn\u2019 (Amphetamine). T\u00f4i th\u01b0\u1eddng \u0111i bar\/club v\u00e0o th\u1ee9 s\u00e1u v\u00e0 \u0103n ch\u01a1i h\u1ebft cu\u1ed1i tu\u1ea7n. T\u00f4i \u0111i c\u00e1c bu\u1ed5i ti\u1ec7c tru\u1ef5 l\u1ea1c v\u00e0 c\u00e1c h\u1ed9p \u0111\u00eam. T\u00f4i ch\u1ec9 coi tr\u1ecdng ti\u1ec1n, t\u00ecnh d\u1ee5c, \u0111\u1ed3 m\u1eafc ti\u1ec1n v\u00e0 nh\u1eefng ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u00e0n \u00f4ng b\u1eaft m\u1eaft m\u00e0 h\u1ecd l\u00e0 nh\u1eefng ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111i ch\u01a1i v\u1edbi t\u00f4i v\u00e0 tr\u1ea3 ti\u1ec1n h\u1ebft cho t\u00f4i. T\u00f4i \u0111i l\u00e0m nh\u1eefng vi\u1ec7c m\u00e0 h\u1ecd tr\u1ea3 ti\u1ec1n v\u00ec ngo\u1ea1i h\u00ecnh c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i, nh\u1eefng vi\u1ec7c nh\u01b0 qu\u1ea3ng c\u00e1o tr\u00ean TV hay ng\u01b0\u1eddi m\u1eabu qu\u1ea3ng c\u00e1o. \u0110i\u1ec1u n\u00e0y tr\u1ea3 l\u01b0\u01a1ng cao nh\u01b0ng \u0111\u00e3 k\u00edch th\u00edch b\u1ea3n ng\u00e3 c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i l\u00ean b\u1ed9i ph\u1ea7n. N\u00f3 l\u00e0m cho t\u00f4i \u1ea3o t\u01b0\u1edfng ti\u1ec1n s\u1ebd mang \u0111\u1ebfn h\u1ea1nh ph\u00fac, nh\u01b0ng th\u1eadt s\u1ef1 th\u00ec t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 r\u1ea5t \u0111au kh\u1ed5.<\/p>\n2. L\u1eddi c\u1ea7u nguy\u1ec7n nh\u01b0 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t v\u00ec c\u1ee9u tinh<\/span><\/h2>\n
3. T\u00ecm th\u1ea5y SSRF<\/strong><\/span><\/h2>\n
4. Tu t\u1eadp m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y<\/strong><\/span><\/h2>\n
5. N\u0103m \u0111\u1ea7u ti\u00ean c\u1ee7a s\u1ef1 tu t\u1eadp \u2013 ki\u00ean tr\u00ec<\/strong><\/span><\/h2>\n
6. N\u0103m th\u1ee9 hai c\u1ee7a s\u1ef1 tu t\u1eadp – nh\u1eefng c\u1ea3m nh\u1eadn t\u00e2m linh<\/strong><\/span><\/h2>\n
\n![\"Her](\"https:\/\/media.spiritualresearchfoundation.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/04\/18141515\/Her-Holiness-Lola-Vezilic.jpg\" "\\"\\"")
7. N\u0103m th\u1ee9 ba – \u0110\u1ee9c tin v\u00e0 H\u1ef7 l\u1ea1c<\/strong><\/span><\/h2>\n
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